I WOULD LIKE TO INTRODUCE MYSELF

Disclaimer: My Dad is not dead, in the poem I refer to his state of being as once being “alive” meaning that he once lived and now he is merely existing. Once again, I write as a means of expression and to be able to transfer my thoughts and feelings into some form of art. This poem I intend to perform in an upcoming play I am writing and thus it is written in a performative manner.

I would like to introduce myself:

I know you can no longer conceptualize or understand my words I freely speak to you

I know you want to know me even though you do not

So, if you do not mind, I would like to introduce myself:

And maybe one day in some other lively form on some other plane of existence with the energy of a thousand-life’s flowing through your limbs you’ll come across this and remember the idea of me as I paint the picture to you in a thousand different thoughts, emotions and feelings I try to comprehend myself

I would like to introduce myself;

I am your daughter, 20 years of age as I write this

20 years of your life you have given to me, thank you

I’m a dreamer daddy, a dramatic effervescent, over-bearing and complex soul

Restless…

But brave, thanks to you.

You’ve made me strong, maybe sometimes too strong.

I feel, and I feel deeply.

I need to feel, it keeps me alive…

ALIVE!
A.L.I.V.E daddy,

and so are you, at least, you were once…

Alive in the sense of the living.

Once upon a lonesome time you lived

and we knew each other.

But such time has replaced that sense of living with a state of inhibiting existence.  

I would like to introduce myself.

I fear not being ok,

I must be OK.

I will be OK.

You will be OK.

We will all be OK.

I would like to introduce myself

A daughter I am to you

celebrating and championing everything you are and everything you cannot be…

You’ll meet me one day

and then,

I will introduce myself,

to you.